And right off the start a big Hello to my new followers here on DA
- I hope you like what you saw and will still like the stuff I'm going to post in the future. If you likem leave me a line to say Hello, too, I just lost track of all the new ones around here
A few days ago, one of "my" pictures got a Daily Deviation - which is really cool, in about eight years of being here on DA, this is my second one!
Well, I am not the model
and I'm not the photographer, but I made the dress Mademoiselle Karma is wearing, she bought it from me about a year ago, and as I asked her if maybe, she could send me some pictures, whenever she made some, I just thought it might be some festival snapshots, it didn't take long until she sent me a set of really amazing pictures.
So I want to thank both artists for the pictures - have a look at their pages, too.
The photographer is here on DA: remussirion.deviantart.com/
And his facebook page ca be found here: www.facebook.com/knochensaege.…
The beautiful model is Mademoiselle Karma: www.facebook.com/MademoiselleK…
At the moment I'm busy with sewing, of course - I have a few commisions, and in the meantime I'm working on some gowns for presentations and shootings, as well as on stuff to sell on my DaWanda shop.
And of course, I'm always searching for models and photographers who want to take pictures with my gowns - but you have to be from Germany. So if you are, and interested, drop me a line.
A few shootings are already arranged, the first will take place this weekend, so I hope I can come up with more great pictures, soon
Apart from that, I haven't been very active in front of the camera myself, lately. Time is one thing, the other one - well, lets say, I went a wee bit out of focus for the most photographers
- I never liked to present extremely female, meaning all that stuff with red lipgloss and long hair, not pinned up in any way, showing cleavage ... I guess you know what I mean.
For me, all that white make-up and being wrapped up in fabric up to the chin never was meant to be "female", but rather something artificial, some alien life form and I'm a lot more comfortable calling that side of me a Drag Queen. There were hardly any pictures of me in everyday clothes, so funny enough, as I started to make a few and even stopped to wear big dresses at festivals, a lot of people (mostly those who didn't knew me apart from, well - festivals and similar events) - were confused by what they saw was a "change in style", but in fact, it wasn't a change at all.
I've always preferred men's clothes in private life, of course, I had some more female phases, too, but I guess it was some sort of denial - in fact, it can't be eplained in a few words. At one point a few years ago, I decided to open up some more, before that, close friends knew and it was OK for me to leave it that way. But in fact, its a lot more than only "OK" not to try to be female, any more. Having my hair cut short about two years ago was a relief so great that I can't really explain how much it meant to me
And it's a lot way beyond a decision of style - despite my biology, I don't feel like a woman and in fact, never really have. It just took a long, long time to figure some stuff out for myself. And the sentence "I don't feel like a woman" isn't something sad or regrettable, I feel very comfortable whenever I have that in my mind
Coming back to the photographer thing ... as soon as I started to come up with some ideas that blurred the lines between male and female, many photographers just didn't want that. Most of them could not understand.
It's OK for me, I don't have the need to please people's eyes, I do not depend on what people think of me. I just noticed, nothing more, I am not upset and I do not want to complain at all. I know some photographers who are open minded or don't care, and are willing to experiment a lot more, so if I want to, I can still make pictures, so maybe there's not really a "on the other hand" - just lack of time and lack of enough new historical outfits for myself - in terms of male clothing
- because I mostly work on commissions now.
So I hope, you will still like my androgynous and hopefully more male pictures which surely will come - in the meantime, you will see enough pictures of real ladies in big gowns that I designed and made
- in fact, it's better for me to get known as a designer and tailor rather that a "model" - which never was something I really saw myself as.
Well, I still love my own big gowns and stuff, and maybe one day I will wear that again, for a shooting or a event, but at the moment it is not something I am comfortable with. Just because people see it as such a female thing and start treating me as a "lady" - and even if I tried hard not to show it, I didn't ever like that at all, so I need a very long and big break from that. And I realised that, when people only see the side of me that they percieve as a very female one, it did upset me a lot more than I even realised myself, so I just have to put it as far away as possible at the moment
Well, that was quite a lot of personal stuff - I don't do that very often, but I just felt the need to write it down. Maybe I can reach some more people of the kind "friends I mostly meet at events" - and in general speaking, the more of you who understand, the more I'm feeling comfortable
OK - so if you have any questions or else, feel free to ask me, wether in the comments or via notes - and like usual - yes I do take commissions
- you just need to consider that I'm from Germany.
And if you managed to read until here - have a look on my facebook page: www.facebook.com/TheTimeTravel…
Aand finally - here's my DaWanda shop: de.dawanda.com/shop/das-zeitre…
If you have any questions regarding that - just ask. I do deliver to other countries, too, although it isn't clearly stated ...